I drown out my sorrows in music. It never works. Something is wrong, but I don't tell. I'm scared I'm going to get judged. I don't want to burden others with my insecurities. I want to be a recluse. I don't want to come out. I want to hide my emotions. Box them up inside an old closet. No one would find them. I am not open. Sometimes.. I just don't wanna be myself. I might get others problems, but at least I can be open. I just want to be loved. Like that's EVER gonna happen. I just am gonna be myself. I'm not gonna sing unless I have to. I'm not gonna love. It may be wonderful, But I'm not worth it. This is a depressing blog, but no one ever reads it anyways. So, I'm ok. I can vent. No one will get hurt, but no one will care. I will never go back to the old fun me. It was too hard. EVERYONE expected me to always be happy. I'm not special, I have emotions too. No one ever cares enough to find out though. XXX Leigha XXX
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